Consideration

[Kurt]

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« Sent to: Kurt on: January 05, 2009, 01:21:43 PM »
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Kurt - we have struggled with how to create some life in this community.  We have asked around and one of the most common answers is that your behavior has not been up to Devils stuff.  Some of your inebriated rampages and attacks on people over the years we've been here have caused a number of people to not participate here.  So, while I sincerely value friendship - many of us have put much in terms of time and money into this community to let it fail.  Those attacks are not representative of who we are or who we want to be.  While you have calmed down quite a bit in recent months, folks have commented that they aren't going to come back if you are here.  So, this is just a fair warning to you.  I and the other admins here will not kick you out without a vote - we all like you and can look past your indiscretions.  However, we have been asked to call a vote.  So, if the membership at large here wants you to stay - or go- then that will be the final decision.  I just didn't want you to be blindsided.

This was sent to me nearly 18 months ago by Martin, which I truely did appreciate a heads up on and I beleive was an 18-2 vote, LOL, Ivy's along awaited vacation.

I am not gonna sit here and talk about myself, as I have psychiatrists to listen to me. Several people inside this game of SB called me out on that fact, and not evening truely knowing me. The best thing for me as of today was getting kicked out as a Devil.

When I am in public, perhaps waiting in line for a lottery purchasing bandit, it annoys me, but I wait, I finally make my purchase and go on. When I pull into the mall parking lot and a Jack-ass sprints in and steals my parking spot, I say," what a dick' and move on

Inside the work place, I am well respected, for my hard working work ethic, however, I have a limit there, I only go off when I know I am right, or strongly disapprove, I now have FMLA, which alows me to walk off the job at anytime, and it is excused.

The wife understands a bit more from me, I have to have things(household) neat, clean, and organized, to keep me calm. A messy house, just boggles my brain, and I get lost in frustration, I do, do 50% of the cleaning, just to let you guys know, the wife isn't a maid

But Inside SBD and SB, inside my office, without presence of anybody is where I suffered my disorder the most, I treated people inside this community as if they stole my parking spot, or made me wait in line to long purchasing lottery tickets, or just flat out disrespect

I honestly would like to apologize to the who SBD, SB community for my past actions, if there was anything to say, that would fix what I said or spoke, typed in the past, let me know.

I honestly apologize

Bipolar is/what you don't make it

Kurt
aka IVY

[jon2s]

I personally hope that you continue to not allow things to roll off you and you take each day as a opportunity to improve on what happened yesterday.  I try to live my life living each day knowing that I cannot change what I did yesterday or the day before but what I can change is how I react today and tomorrow. 

I'm not going to lie to you and tell you that all is forgiven by everyone here.  You know that and I know that.  I will tell you that I hold no hard feelings myself.

Take care Kurt.

[Kurt]

Thanks Jon, I really appreciate hearing from sombody inside the SB world

At around 38 years of age, I actually started to listen to people, who stated, there was something wrong with me, not strangers or co-workers, but close friends, and family, but all men inside my family don't see doctor, given broken bones, I was the same way for 38 years, broken bones and stitches is the only time I went to the hospital, not a doctor.

I struggled with my decision to seek a doctor for about 3 months, I finally asked my mother to make my appointment, and she gave me the positive advice I needed, regaurdless of what the doctor wants to do with me, meds or what not, I am in charge. Four medications later, and lots of aggravation with ups and downs, I found peace inside myself.

I would just like to share to this community what Kurt is about, the good qualities I have to offer.

Ivy is dead!

Regaurdless, the past 9 years of my SB career won't be forgotten, it was a roller-coaster

Peace-out
Kurt

[Martin]

Good to see things on a good track for you, Kurt.